Read this to me.. I'll come back to you

My Dearest Allie,

I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.

Noah

~ I saw "The Notebook" again today. It never really occurred to me how beautiful Noah's letter is to Allie, it was honest and something more. If it's full of love - that i do not know. I felt something hit home tonight. If it's because of what I'm going through, maybe. Still, it does not change the fact that I long for him. He is in my thoughts - always. In my mind, in my heart. What pains me the most is that he is gone.. lord knows i fought hard for us.. trying to make him see. With him I felt everything made sense. With him i felt safe.. loved. I was caught off guard - like the earth beneath my feet was pulled by titans and never would i be standing on that same spot. I am afraid to let go - for if i do i will move on.. and when i move on i will forget.. right now i don't want to forget.. In time i am sure it will pass. the longing. the sadness. but right now.. all i have is the memory of him. here. beside me.