Realization

I have a secret. It feels dirty to share.. people who usually have "it" are often seen as lazy, overindulgent, or just a plain slob. 

I am a diabetic.

For years I have been in denial about my condition. Before the pandemic I was in and out of the hospital because of my uncontrollable blood sugar level. I thought, what the hell I'm still young - plenty of milage. I was so defiant against what the doctors were telling me. I kept on thinking "huh --- you'll never tame this!" Sabi ko sa sarili ko, magkamatayan na di ako bibili ng glucometer. Kasi iniisip ko hindi ako diabetic. Mahilig lang talaga ako sa matamis. 

Fast forward to 2022, I am now 32 years old. Just got out of the hospital - had a minor operation and now I'm facing the music. Bumili na ko ng glucometer. After all the stops and starts, tinatanggap ko na. Taste like vinegar - mas maasim pa sa kili-kili ni Mang Juan - I AM A DIABETIC. 

So ito na, to commemorate my acceptance while I'm still finding my peace..